No doubt about it, this week has been hard. Some days, it just seems like a bad dream. Other days, when I close my eyes, the reality of the situation won't leave me. It's easier to keep busy, to keep moving, until I collapse from exhaustion at the end of the day. Throwing myself in to getting the documents ready makes me feel like we're moving closer, like before this all happened.
I remember after court, the inspector came up to us and said that all children are born from pain, this was just part of his birth. This was before we knew there was any hope of resolution. I was just wanting to go HOME, and her words seemed hollow and a million miles away from my heartbreak.
As I processed through my tears on that long car ride back to our host home, her words kept coming back to echo in my head, but in a different form.
"Joy born from pain is that much more joyful."
I know our joy will be born. Through the tears, sorrow, heart break, uncertainty- our joy will be born. And we will have that much more to rejoice over. God has a plan, and we trust Him to guide us through this darkness with His perfect light, through the pain of this trial to the joy of bringing our son home.
I remember after court, the inspector came up to us and said that all children are born from pain, this was just part of his birth. This was before we knew there was any hope of resolution. I was just wanting to go HOME, and her words seemed hollow and a million miles away from my heartbreak.
As I processed through my tears on that long car ride back to our host home, her words kept coming back to echo in my head, but in a different form.
"Joy born from pain is that much more joyful."
I know our joy will be born. Through the tears, sorrow, heart break, uncertainty- our joy will be born. And we will have that much more to rejoice over. God has a plan, and we trust Him to guide us through this darkness with His perfect light, through the pain of this trial to the joy of bringing our son home.
Hey Melissa,
ReplyDeleteBeen thinking about you guys and praying. When our first trip to Russia was cancelled 3 days before we were supposed to leave, someone shared this verse with me. I hung it on my fridge back in June and it is still there now as a reminder to me of God's faithfulness. Both our boys are home now and I am praying the same for Hudson:
"...I know whom I have believed and am convinced that He is able to guard what I have entrusted to Him for that day." 2 Timothy 1:12
praying for you guys during this trying time. back in January- one of my devotions was about thanking God for working in ways in which we are not even aware at the present moment. i am certain God is working to do great things in your sweet family's life!!
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